Reoccuring Dreams

Steven can never remember his dreams and I can't decide if he's lucky or not. I remember my dreams all the time, and not just in a fleeting way. I tend to remember my dreams in great detail, at least for a day. I mean, yeah sometimes I have those "whoa that was weird, but can't remember now..." moments but in general I remember every one. Some dreams I've had have really affected me. I've had some crazy dreams, as people do, and I've always wondered what they mean?

There have been many dreams that have stayed with me and from time to time I think about them. One of the scariest dreams I've ever had was when I was about 6. I couldn’t shake this dream off and it seems like for months I had this re-occurring dream. So here it is...

I'm in a white endless space. I can see tall sunflowers. They looked like they have been drawn by some pencil crayons. Their colours are bright. I want to touch them. I can see myself and I look like I've been drawn by the people who draw "Purple Ronnie". I want to touch the flowers. The flowers begin to move towards me and as my thin arm reach out and my stringy fingers are about to touch the flower it shatters like glass. I try again and again to touch the flowers and they keep shattering. Coloured glass shards float down like feathers. Both of my hands are grasping at the flowers and tears and screams are filling the white space. Eventually the flowers are moving so fast that as soon as they come close to me they snap like glass. I can’t take it anymore and I wake up.

I used to wake up so happy that it was over. Weird!

Another reoccuring dream that I had when I was young is one of my mum.

We are on a train. I'm always very young, like 2 year old, wearing a white frilly dress and my mum is young (30-ish) and she's wearing a beige jacket she had in the eighties. The train looks like one those old stream trains, with olive green leather seats and a mahogany wood finish. My mum is holding me and we are looking out of the window to the gold sand dunes. The train stops and I need the toilet but there are no toilets on the train. So I get off the train by myself. The station is just a platform I can’t see anybody or anything just a dark doorway, where the toilet is. I hear the train start up and start to leave the platform. I'm running down the platform reaching for my mum. She hanging out the window, her thick black hair goes into her face, she shouts "Bebe! Bebe! Mi bebe!" The train disappears into the distance. I'm left alone on the platform; all I can see is the gold sand, even the railway tracks disappear into the sand.

I used to wake up with tears in my eyes. Even to this day I can't figure out which dream scares me more.

posted under , |

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Sometimes I wish I could remember my dreams as well as you do... and sometimes I'm happy I don't.

Newer Post Older Post Home

Followers


Recent Comments